Pastel Winter & Overthinking Life
Putting pressure on myself, yep… that’s what I can do best. Some people do it more often, some less. I’m the kind of person, who does this waaaaay too often… unfortunately. Overthinking and trying to be perfect in the way you work, look and live life basically, can become an addiction that is so hard, almost impossible to fulfill. Even writing a post like this always makes me think about perfection. But why is it that I never seem to be happy with what I’m doing?
Especially now, that my time as an university student is over, I always feel like I have to improve in every way! They say –cool, you can do what you want now, no more learning-, right? Wrong! To me, this is the time where everything counts so much more. You kinda have to show the world that you can do it! Living your own life, knowing what you want in life and of course making your own money and being responsible for everything! Don’t get me wrong – Growing up is a good thing. I moved out of my parents house when I was 19 and I had an apartment by myself. I truly think this was the best decision ever!
I like to overthink my future and things, that I got no control of, to the point where my negativity seems like the deepest, blackest hole ever!
Who can relate to sleepless nights you spend in thoughts, overthinking everything that could possibly happen? But why do we do this? I do this all the time and this really needs to stop. There is literally nothing to achieve by that. Nothing horrible ever happened, you know? The truth is that I feel the worst thinking about all that stuff.